Tuesday, February 28, 2006


You must have thought that 'absence makes the heart grow fonder' contradicts with 'out of sight- out of mind'.... right??? (can see your heads nodding an 'aye')....Think again!

They are both the same...


Ok... When that special person left or went away, his/her absence made your heart grow fonder....(am i rt? or were u so damn happy that u threw a party??)........... And now when that person is out of sight, are you not out of your mind??? :)

hmmm.... ponder ye all... for what seems may not be....

A new moon on the last day of an unleap month of this year... hehe... no, there is no connection.... but magic can happen sometimes... and it did!!! My prayers are being answered...

so thank you god! (ps: please to listen some more and harder so that the next time I don't get a half-way thru break, but a complete jackpot!!!)...... Did I just hear you say Amen? :)))

Monday, February 27, 2006

Live and Let Live!!!!

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Do Words Hold Us Back?

I was having an interesting conversation with a friend (L) online on the Pink Floyd quotes I had used on the blog and was telling her about some of the nice quotes I had heard ... when she said, 'but words will always hold you back'... and 'understandingly' I could not comprehend (if you know what I mean) and we went back and forth about this. And I was trying to tell her that what use were words if they could not be spoken...
and she was like, "thats not what I'm saying- but words will hold you back....irrespective of them being said or unsaid." And I thought maybe its the memory of those words or the want of them might hold us back, and she said "no, much more than that...."
By now my mind was all curious,and sub-consciously I knew what she was saying, but for the loss of me, I just failed to 'know'... and insisted that words can never replace feelings maybe, but they do help articulate them... and there she went again...
L : "nope. I know we all love words, but words hold back." And I was thinking maybe she meant action speak louder than words... But at the same time I told her that there is a possibility that words hold back, but they also let you be... free at times.
L: "they dont... we think they do but they dont". And she said, "...actions...words....speech....why speak? As for the base thot... language itself is created for the very purpose of record..."

And I was thinking by now this is some vicious cycle - of thoughts and words... when she asked something basic...."ever loved in silence? Its far more intense. Ever wondered why?Ever felt for some1 and never had the chance to express it... its far more intense... ever wondered why?"

I did... wonder that is... and I also understood what she meant completely... at least my sub-conscious or heart did, while my mind kept trying to mentally decipher and solve the problem....and so said 'but hey, I dont only need to be loved, but to be told that I am loved..." quoting a famous person...
L : " language rests on a simple principle that fails us often... that my perception of a word is the same as yours... also it roots in experience.... it doesnt work..."

By now I was adamant with the fact that words dont hold us back, we do and blame it on words...and she was trying to say as long as they exist, words do hold back... and yes, by now you must be confused....so was I then... very confused....so thought maybe she meant that there is a diff language of love that needed no words...
L: "...nope. im saying languages hold back....why structure something so unstructured and beautiful. wat doesnt hold back? the heart and the heart knows no language.."
D: "language is a form of expression.... only a form. Expressions have diff forms...one of them being silence too. Feeling is an expression of the heart."
L: "but the purpose of language is not expression- its communication"
L: "feeling is not an expression. feeling is an action."
D: "its an action of the heart so wat has been 'acted' has been expressed-that expression need nt be understood or divulged or said aloud."
L: "it doesnt have to be even worded in our minds... let alone speaking it out or trying to 'communicate; it to feel it."
D: "im saying an action is an expression of sorts... even if its nt worded. When we feel, acceptance of that feeling is an expression."
L: "no, D. Action and expression is different but we r so used to validating its existence through expression we forget the two r distinct. Its one of those things that cant be seen from within the barriers of language.Words will never let words break. Its one of those things that come out from within. Primal instinct if ud like to call it that,but its why wording it and recording its experiences are so important? When that wont matter ull soar free.....when that wont matter is when u see that words hold back."

hmmm....and I've been thinking of this for the past few days.. and then stopped. Just like that. And I'm not sure if I'm 'wording' (pun intended) it right, but from within it was the feeling that overcame me that said it all... to feel. to be as is. to exist. And when you're experiencing the feeling of feeling, then nothing else matters- no words can express it. But its not just that....when you contain the feeling within yourself, that force is so strong and intense that it elevates you and you soar...just knowing you felt. I don't know if thats what she meant, but its what I deciphered for myself.....
But will play the devil's advocate here and say..."sometimes its better to word what you feel and let that intensity dissipate and be exhaled from the self, even if a little bit of it...there comes comfort with that too."

Saturday, February 25, 2006

Baawra man dekhne chala ek sapna...

mohabbat mein nahin hai farq jeene aur marne kaa
usee ko dekh kar jeete hain jis kaafir pe dum nikle
Hazaaron Khwahishen aisi ke har khwahish pe dum nikle
bahut nikle mere armaan lekin phir bhi kam nikle

loosely translated....
In love, there is no difference between being alive and dead
I live by the sight of the very same who takes my living breath away
A thousand desires such as these,that each wish takes my life
No matter how many desires stemmed forth, they were still not enough....

well, I just finally managed seeing one of the most-talked about movie of last year(Hazaaron Khwaishen Aisi- for the un-informed) Well, I guess many people have already voiced their opinion about this movie- it does manage to get under the skin and slowly grow so much within that you cant shake it off, no matter how hard you try ... right now I'm rivetted by this song and especially this verse... it so well sums up the agony of love and the crux of the movie....simple,beautiful,poignant and timeless!

Ah love! What are you, I sometimes wonder... you come in without notice, change me completely, play games with me....and yet I can't live with or without you.... could I hate you? But I guess its because you are not there that I have no option but to hate....

Neil Gaiman, the author of 'The Sandman' had this to say about love..."Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”

As someone very dear to me mentioned this once... " The more you persist, the more it will resist. And the more you resist, the more it will persist." ... What never got said that one day neither you can resist or persist anymore- you simply die...by living a thousand deaths such as these.

Friday, February 24, 2006

Wish you were here...

that Pink Floyd(how I love this group!) quote got me thinking of their songs... few someones ... and esp these lines...

"How I wish, how I wish you were here...
We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl,
Year after year....
Running over the same old ground.
What have we found?
The same old fears.

Wish you were here.”


Just got this as a comment- and since it was anonymously written- I don't know whom to thank....
"The idea behind ButterFly effect is that even the flapping of the butterfly wings can affect the weather on the plant, accordingly the cosmos etc. In the movie towards the end the protagonist realises that as a boy his kind gesture towards the girl caused her to make the decision to stay with her father and accordingly impacting both their destinies. Simply put even the smallest gestures in life have the power to influence destiny.
for long you live and high you fly
and smiles you'll give and tears you'll cry
and all your touch and all you see
is all your life will ever be- Pink Floyd[I just like the quote] "

peepulzzzzz, write your name at least plss... what is the point of 'freedom of speech' when one can't say that this was "I". Thanks!!! :)
Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind.
ps: I like the Pink Floyd quote too!

Thursday, February 23, 2006

What has to be, will.

Was watching Butterfly Effect last night... a different movie, to say the least. Ashton Kutcher in the lead role (never liked him really, till I saw this movie) as a young man who blocks out harmful memories of significant events of his life. As he grows up, he finds a way to remember these lost memories and a supernatural way to alter his life... and everytime he tries to change something and make it good, something bad happens... Its like telling us not to play with destiny or with nature- let them take their own course, for you never know when the 'good' you're about to force turns out to be 'real bad'.... by the way, this movie is worth watching...its fast paced, a lil sad and disturbing, but tackles the aspect of love and its ultimate challenge to a human.
There is another movie called Paycheck, wherein there is a machine built, which has the ability to predict the future....now that's scary too bec you start playing mental games with yourself and everyone around... Let life be. And as goes a dialogue in the movie... "Some of the best things in life often are mistakes." Amen to that!

Coming back to the earlier film I was talking about, I heard and quite like this amazing song in it. Performed by Oasis, its called Stop Crying Your Heart Out. Enjoi! (am attaching a link for you to download it.)

Hold up
Hold on
Don't be scared
You'll never change what's been and gone

May your smile (may your smile)
Shine on (shine on)
Don't be scared (don't be scared)
Your destiny may keep you warm

Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Get up (get up)
Come on (come on)
Why're you scared? (I'm not scared)
You'll never change
What's been and gone

Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

We're all of us stars
We're fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see us some day
Just take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out


Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Comment Allez- Vous?

February for the French?

France is making news everywhere about everything... (well almost!) whether it wants to or not...
First the poilitically wrung, financially crunched up issue of Mittal Steel taking over Arcelor.
Then the controversial caricatures reprinted by the French Soir, a newspaper, in a show of support for freedom of expression. And then thousands marched in protest to this expression.
And now the third...hindus have protested against the demeaning use of their gods in the world famous cabaret club Lido.

well....what can one say but...c'est la vie!
au revoir folkses... till tomorrow.

on ur way out, check out the image below. Everyday, Google has the logo on its homepage changed to suit different sports of the Winter Olympics in Turino. Quite like this one...

Monday, February 20, 2006


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" so many things to say, so few who'll hear them"
A quiche of a popular saying and my thoughts to sort of sum up the reason of this blog. And when I was asked what took me so long to begin one (sort of expected out of me big mouth, huh? hehe), I actually was....'yea!!!!! what the hell took me so long? When I can vomit all I want to at one place, why then stick only to sending nonsensical parodies to so many people by mail.
"Things do not happen. Things are made to happen."... John F Kennedy.
Well it did and so here 'we' start - together on an exciting journey of words ...
Why lovemarks? I'll explain with a quote from George Bernard Shaw. "Imagination is the beginning of creation. You imagine what you desire, you will what you imagine and at last you create what you will." And of course the byline of my blog title says it all.
So welcome all ye! to the soundbox of my innerness (if there is a word like that) and thanks!
ps: A Rubaiyat is a common shorthand name for the collection of Persian verses known more formally as the Rubaiyat of Omar Khayyam. In fact, rubaiyat (a plural word derived from the Arabic root meaning 'four') means "quatrains" in the Persian language.