A shower of love....

Yesterday- 30th May- was a wonderful day! Not only was it the birthday of one my closest, bestest and one of the most loved person (M), but to commemorate the celebrations- it rained... actually, it poured! :)
It began at 12.15 am till the wee hours in the morning and then poured really heavily from 6pm onwards... we happened to go see the Da Vinci Code (more on that in my next post) and when we got out, the heavens were pouring down... So much so that every turn we took on our bike, the rain seemed to follow us strongly there...and just when we thought we managed to avoid it, we'd be suddenly drenched face-on! But I really loved it...was so much fun! And I love Pune in the rains...feels like a hill station with cool breeze (a respite from the sweltering heat of 40 degrees!) and overcast sky.... :) ... Now's the perfect time for that cuppa o'hot chocolate and warm razais! hehe.

Like I had mentioned in one of my earlier posts, it was a sign... otherwise why would it rain only when M's birthday would begin... like it happened on saturday night, when I was sitting on Carter Road, Mumbai and praying hard that it would rain as apparantly I had happened to miss it when it had drizzled earlier that week in Pune as well as Mumbai. And just then, only for those few mins (from the time I sat on carter road till I got into a rick- roughly 15 mins) it rained, as if my wishes were being answered! And since I happened to be with a friend whom I always associate the rain with(during our most upsetting moments or the best, it has rained - that too unexpectedly and not even during the season), it was even more a sign from the heavens above!

Ok, now for some few lines I had penned on the rain - different times, different moods...

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Tilt my head up and feel it on my face,

lips and tongue...

rain that falls through soft laden clouds

Love that pours from the sky...

(sigh)

that it blows the mind...

oh!

what a glorious high!

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Pitter Patter goes the reggendrupple softly

on the sleeping leaves

Darting and jumping over roofs merrily

with wind-clad hoofs....

Hark! Say the birds,

don't disturb us so,

Let the song and dance accompany

the ones on their way home...

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Red sky night and a yellow moon...

Hear the call of a distant lune.

Love calls as a longing sigh,

as raindrops trickle

on my face from yonder high....

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hours of darkness...

thoughts float across the mind
as I look
outside the window
with the earth gone into a temporary dark blind

not a sound I hear
except of automation...
and my heart beats
fluttering with excitement and fear

in anticipation
of moments to come
and times to be crossed
a temporary gestation
before the dawn breaks out
and the blinds get drawn
while my beating heart withdraws
and calms
in the knowing
of luck
that another day has been got.

- May 25,2006
Thursday
1.00am

LET US BE!

This is with respect to the recent news in the Times Of India newspaper that India has been irked by few comments made by the Pope on conversions and racial discriminations. Please check the link (click on the title of the post).

Will share a small incident that happened when I was in architecture college. We were a group of 4-5, in our last year of college, who had stayed over at a friend's place to study and complete our projects together. My friend's mom is a teacher at a school for mentally challenged kids and so everyone knew her in the neighbourhood. One afternoon, a Jesuit nun, accompanied by a small child, paid us a visit. Of course, my friend’s mom asked her in and was chatting up with her... we girls happened to be in the living room and taking a break from our hectic routine. In the course of the chat, the lady starts condemning the Hindu religion and begins preaching about the positives of being what she is.

We were taken aback at first, but in a while could not taken it anymore. And asked her to leave. She began speaking more aggressively and telling us that we will suffer as we are not following the true god. To which we replied that we have tremendous respect for all religions and all gods, and there is no god in any religion who says that a person be forced to believe in him...esp. as all religions preach and practice love and tolerance. And not only that, we also happen to visit the temple, dargah, gurudwara and church with equal fervour. And celebrate Christmas, Diwali , Eid, Navroze and Vaisakhi together…we have never made friends on the basis of who is what and why. On which the lady really took off and said how is that possible and how can we compare all other religions to Christianity.

So we then literally had to force her out. But before leaving, we asked her few (rhetorical) questions (of course she didn’t reply)- Why not let people be what they are and follow whatever they want to? And is this what you are trying to teach this young child (who was with her) and our generation next- to thus discriminate between people?

I also believe no other country is as religiously tolerant as India. I mean, c'mon, where else do we have separate laws for people based on their religious tendencies!? On top most of the people have lived with each other for centuries now...happily too! And the only religious madness we have in the country is politically motivated, and does not in anyway stem from it's people. We also have public holidays for each festival of every religion- which other country has that?

No offense meant to anyone, but this is one issue that really irritates the hell out of me! Why don’t people just let others be? And also leave India to its own battles and not make it a religious issue every time? Not only the world, our own politicians need to be told the same- leave religious sentiments aside- that is personal- and I’m sure no one likes their personal preferences be made into a world war.

And India is a land of converts-in fact why just India, the whole world is. Converts of: land, faith, religion, sexual preferences, gender, principles, human nature, physical appearance, economical and social stratas, educational and professional backgrounds, love and friendship and also enemity.... of life itself. Are we going to stop the whole world from being the way they are?

In the midst of tsunamis, earthquakes, global warming and more, should we really spend time on keeping a check on someone else's faith and tendencies thereof?

And to what end? Isn’t death the only inevitability?

in the Pink of Floyd-part1.

One of my fave fave bands... and some of their great songs that I like- not just lyrics but also the music and overall 'sound' of it...Am taking one album at a time- starting with Division Bell.

COMING BACK TO LIFE

(my ultimate 'hot chocolate with rain' song. this one's too close to my heart to express...)

Where were you when I was burned and broken

While the days slipped by from my window watching

Where were you when I was hurt and I was helpless

Because the things you say and the things you do surround me

While you were hanging yourself on someone else's words

Dying to believe in what you heard

I was staring straight into the shining sun

Lost in thought and lost in time

While the seeds of life and the seeds of change were planted

Outside the rain fell dark and slow

While I pondered on this dangerous but irresistible pastime

I took a heavenly ride through our silence

I knew the moment had arrived

For killing the past and coming back to life

I took a heavenly ride through our silence

I knew the waiting had begun

And headed straight...into the shining sun

KEEP TALKING

(a good one that goes with Universal Realms 2 and 3 in my earlier post)

For millions of years mankind lived just like animals

Then something happened which unleashed the power of our imagination

We learned to talk

There's a silence surrounding me

I can't seem to think straight

I'll sit in the corner

No one can bother me

I think I should speak now (why won't you talk to me)

I can't seem to speak now (you never talk to me)

My words won't come out right (what are you thinking)

I feel like I'm drowning (What are you feeling)

I'm feeling weak now (why won't you talk to me)

But I can't show my weakness (you never talk to me)

I sometimes wonder (what are you thinking)

Where do we go from here (what are you feeling)

It doesn't have to be like this

All we need to do is make sure we keep talking

Why won't you talk to me (I feel like I'm drowning)

You never talk to me (you know I can't breathe now)

What are you thinking (we're going nowhere)

What are you feeling (we're going nowhere)

Why won't you talk to me

You never talk to me

What are you thinking

Where do we go from here

It doesn't have to be like this

All we need to do is make sure we keep talking

POLES APART
(know many people I can sing this song too...and haunt! hehe)

Did you know...it was all going to go so wrong for you
And did you see it was all going to be so right for me
Why did we tell you then

You were always the golden boy then

And that you'd never lose that light in your eyes

Hey you...did you ever realise what you'd become
And did you see that it wasn't only me you were running from
Did you know all the time but it never bothered you anyway
Leading the blind while I stared out the steel in your eyes

The rain fell slow, down on all the roofs of uncertainty
I thought of you and the years and all the sadness fell away from me

And did you know...

I never thought that you'd lose that light in your eyes

days full of emotions...

Spent this weekend going thru a myriad emotions, nuances and thought processes....and many people... the same being expressed below....

Universal Realm-1.
Bored am I!
Why should I listen to thy?
Just to say 'my-o-my'
How well you manage to lie!?



Universal Realm-2.

A day of rush and haste

maybe partly gone to waste

Noises reverberate more as a din

All I can do is bear and grin...

and put up my chin...

Times lost and moments gone

Is making me oh so forlorn!

When will I learn my lessons well?

And learn to live and not just dwell....



Universal Realm-3
Strangers all
whichever directions I see...
A few familiar and loved faces
amidst these fishes in the sea
All remind me of the person
I thought I was but not anymore....
And of dreams and nuances of yore
A cold wave
spreads through my being
As I find myself distant
from these souls living...
Life has brought me to a full circle
of emotions....
Giving me part hope and despair in portions....




Universal Realm-4
Life plays games
that are hard to decipher
Makes you see otherwise
and bear
things you actually don't want to hear

Everybody has their own reasons
for being the way they are
and when you think
you finally have understood,
they change,
with the passing seasons...

Have fun while the company
of the friend can last
and forget the rest
seems to be the mantra of now
never mind the broken heart
you leave behind
and shards of a wanton past

Its so easy to say
you don't care anymore
that you need to live
and not be bound
and to believe

that distances are a must...
the more they are....
the less you pay.

Saw love transform
and become
someone else
us became you and me
and the 'I' got lost
someplace else
suddenly
the void appeared;
to say ,
you are not needed
anymore
go back to where
you're from


So what happens
to love
that lasts through
rollercoaster of feelings

and behaviour
growing stronger
as time passes...
living to give
completely,
as the only way it can
exist or will do.

A high spirit am i....

A weekend plus beginning of the week and a weekend back in Mumbai... may these days never end! :)

Was a chilled out weekend as saturday night was spent at Red Box in Bandra (where Fluid/Golden Orchid was) with A and S (loves of my life, one from mumbai and the other from delhi)... some yum pasta and just abt ok pizza, with a nice bottle of le vino to drench our poor parched ‘alcohol-free for months’ throats... and of course me being the lucky soul who got gifts galore (oh! how I love these two for it...tee hee!) and was fabulously entertained too with the back n forth 'sweet' namecalling that these two always do to each other... went on to see Pink Panther- and we rolled with laughter!!!!!!!!!

I so specially found the scene where the two camouflage themselves and then dance later, really cool! A late nightcap after the movie saw us bringing in ‘A’s’ birthday and us cutting the pastry on carter road, hanging on and singing till 2am, creating oneliners of poems- each contributing a line… waah waah! (VERY SERIOUSLY SAID, MIND YOU!)… dahlinggs A & S, don’t mind me putting up our stuff, but I had to…

Yellow moon over the sea’ (me)
‘Gliding the waves as far as I can see’ (S)
‘Bringing tranquility to you and me’
‘Wishing it could last an eternity’……..
…..’Exercise Regularly’

(giggle)

Sitting beneath a carpet of stars (S)
Wondering if there’s life on mars (me)
Past the hush noise of eavesdropping cars (S)
Wouldn’t I like unlocking nature’s jars! (A)
I wonder, how much chocolate goes in making 2 bars? (me)

Were we drunk or were we drunk… in the magic of the moonlit sea…I guess it was also within each other…."I believe that friends are quiet angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly."... Oh! But you know, when the going gets on and the company is great, another bottle of wine does wonders to the soul, ain’t it??? ;) Which is what we did… drink wine and be merry….till the wee hours of the morn hearing a pesky koel trying to wake those who wanted to sleep…us!

The next morn was too kool. A hurried breakfast and off we went to see Ice Age 2 at the new PVR theatre in Juhu. I abs loved the movie (liked the first one better….) then browsed thru at Crossword and ogled at Twinkle Khanna (what amazing skin!!!!) and more at her son (light eyes, handsome face….damn cute! Pity he’s still a kid!)…. And then an afternoon siesta.... snoreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! (aah bliss! off to dream land...)

Evening, S and I browsed some more, this time Oxford at Churchgate. I bought some real cool books…two of them almost sounding similar and are to an extent like each other… all about food, sensuality and seducing! Voila, men beware! If you like what I cook, you are the one next on the hook! ;)

The long nice drive back home (was picked up by sis, jiju and nephew and to cut traffic we went from the inner roads past the dockyards and the industrial shed areas) was jolted when my nephew asked. ‘why are we passing through a gaon?’. And we were like ‘huh! Yeh kya bol raha hai?’…. and he continued, ‘…there are lots of trees here na, no buildings, all small small ones…’. From a 5-year old’s keen observation, it is apparent that the urbane life has no place for nature…. And this young generation will grow up on this sad premise that cities have only cement matchboxes piled high, and trees and low-rise structures are meant to be for the villagers!

An irony to the night before and earlier afternoon where we were free souls abandoned by the clutches of responsibilities and so blissfully unaware that Mumbai is still a gaon in places(yay!)…. Thank god for small mercies!

I follow the night

Can't stand the light

When will I begin to live again

One day I'll fly away

Leave all this to yesterday

What more could your love do for me

When will love be through with me

Why live life from dream to dream

And dread the day when dreaming ends

One day I'll fly away

Leave all this to yesterday

Why live life from dream to dreamA

nd dread the day when dreaming ends

One day I'll fly away

Fly fly away...

ok... the Loony Moon is signing off now. Esp as it's her time to be ''all grown up''...and she'll be back with more gory details once this weekend is done...;)

Till then...universes of love, laughter and magic (with some silver fairy dust too) wished for you! Ta!

FOR YOU, MY DEAREST POOH!

"How do you do Nothing?" asked Pooh.
"Well, it's when people call out at you just as you're going off to do it,
`What are you going to do, Christopher Robin?'
and you say, `Oh, nothing'
and then you go and do it.
It means just going along, listening to all the things you can't hear, and not bothering."
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"I'm not going to do Nothing any more." "Never again?" "Well, not so much. They don't let you."
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How can you get very far,
If you don’t know Who You Are?
How can you do what you ought,
If you don’t know What You’ve Got?
And if don’t know Which To Do
Of all the things in front of you,
Then what you’ll have when you are through
Is just a mess without a clue
Of all the best that can come true
If you know What and Which and Who
- The wise way from the 'Tao of Pooh'

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Cottleston Cottleston Cottleston Pie,

A fly can't bird, but a bird can fly.

Ask me a riddle and I reply

Cottleston Cottleston Cottleston Pie.

Cottleston Cottleston Cottleston Pie,

Why does a chicken?

I don't know why.

Ask me a riddle and I reply

Cottleston Cottleston Cottleston Pie.

Cottleston Cottleston Cottleston Pie,

A fish can't whistle and neither can I.

Ask me a riddle and I reply

Cottleston Cottleston Cottleston Pie.
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"You can't stay in your corner of the forest, waiting for others to come to you; you have to go to them sometimes."
Winnie the PoohPiglet, Pooh's Little Instruction Book
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“Poetry and Hums aren't things which you get, they're things which get you. And all you can do is to go where they can find you”
- Winnie The Pooh
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“When you are a Bear of Very Little Brain, and you Think of Things, you sometimes find that a Thing which seemed very Thingish inside you is quite different when it gets out into the open and has other people looking at it.”


"Pooh, promise you won't forget about me, ever. Not even when I'm a hundred." Pooh thought for a little. "How old shall I be then?" "Ninety-nine." Pooh nodded. "I promise," he said.
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"If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together.. there is something you must always remember. you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. but the most important thing is, even if we're apart.. i'll always be with you.”

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Piglet sidled up behind Pooh. "Pooh," he whispered. "Yes, Piglet?" "Nothing," said Piglet, taking Pooh's paw. "I just wanted to be sure of you."
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"Some people care too much, I think it's called love...."
Winnie the Pooh
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The Pooh Song
On Monday, when the sun is hot I wonder to myself a lot:
Now is it true, or is it not,
That what is which and which is what?
On Tuesday, when it hails and snows
The feeling on me grows and grows
That hardly anybody knows
If those are these or these are those.
On Wednesday, when the sky is blue,
And I have nothing else to do, I
sometimes wonder if it's true
That who is what and what is who.
On Thursday, when it starts to freeze
And hoar-frost twinkles on the trees,
How very readily one sees
That these are whose-
but whose are these?
On Friday- (nt complete becos of an interruption by kanga)
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Us Two
Wherever I am, there's always Pooh,
There's always Pooh and Me.
Whatever I do, he wants to do,
"Where are you going today?" says Pooh:
"Well, that's very odd 'cos I was too.
Let's go together," says Pooh, says he.
"Let's go together," says Pooh.
"What's twice eleven?" I said to Pooh,
("Twice what?" said Pooh to Me.)
"I think it ought to be twenty-two."
"Just what I think myself," said Pooh.
"It wasn't an easy sum to do,
But that's what it is," said Pooh, said he.
"That's what it is," said Pooh.
"Let's look for dragons," I said to Pooh.
"Yes, let's," said Pooh to Me.
We crossed the river and found a few -
"Yes, those are dragons all right," said Pooh.
"As soon as I saw their beaks I knew.
That's what they are," said Pooh, said he.
"That's what they are," said Pooh.
"Let's frighten the dragons." I said to Pooh.
"That's right," said Pooh to Me.
"I'm not afraid," I said to Pooh,
And I held his paw and I shouted , "Shoo!
Silly old dragons!" - and off they flew.
"I wasn't afraid," said Pooh, said he,
"I'm never afraid with you."
So wherever I am, there's always Pooh,
There's always Pooh and Me.
"What would I do?" I said to Pooh,
"If it wasn't for you," and Pooh said: "True,
It isn't much fun for One, but Two
Can stick together," says Pooh, says he.
"That's how it is," says Pooh.

00:00

Got this message from a friend : 'On May 4, 2006 at 2mins and 3 seconds past 1am, the time and date will read as 01:02:03:04/05/06. An event that will not happen again.'
Got me thinking on the power of 'suggestion of magic'... and how everyone is searching high and low for the universe to make their wishes come true. And yes, I am a big believer in making wishes to the sun, moon and stars and all those yonder constellations and every day/night I keep asking them 'mera number kab aayega!?'

Well speaking of numbers and magic and signs from the universe... I have noticed many things happening around me that have sort of made my beliefs stronger... Like for instance, I was really upset because I had not heard from a friend for real long... and for weeks.... all the communication would be one-sided- mine. Then one day, out of desperation, I literally begged the world above my head to grant me a break and show a sign that he cares... a mail, letter, sms, call...anything. And within ten mins I got a call from him! This by the way has happened too many times for me to say it is coincidental.

That apart, there have been times when there have been major changes in my life and too many lows as compared to the highs...and every time things started getting balanced out, I would always land up seeing the same numbers on my watch... 12:12 or 10:10 or 00:00.. and when things would get slightly better the times I used to look at the watch invariably were the times when the watch would read 12:13 or 10:11 or 00:01 (one ahead)... At first I thought these were too uncanny and part of my imagination... but as it kept happening (and still does), I realised these are signs that the universe is sending me...all I need to do is keep my eyes and ears, and most importantly my mind and heart open.

I remember reading the Alchemist and understanding a lot of what was said in that book about signs. A lot of people I know pooh-poohed the book and said its all hogwash and nonsensical jargon that should not be read...but it's not what was written, but what was being conveyed, which was of importance.
There is magic happening all around, with every breath we take... Only we give different names to it....